So close.

four days until my embryos get thawed and 8 days until my transfer! I am excited beyond all measurements. However, it still does not feel real! I am going to be PREGNANT in 8 days. Even as I write it, it doesn't really register to my brain. When will it feel real, I wonder? When I see the two lines on the pregnancy test, when it is confirmed by blood, when I see the baby on the ultrasound, when I deliver my baby? I have been in denial I guess. Not that I don't want to be pregnant as it is my heart's one true desire. But because it just seems so unreal. I have wanted this moment for so long more than anything I have ever wanted my whole life. My husband feels the same way. Every night he tells me he can't even wrap his head around the idea of me being pregnant. But he is so excited. He keeps saying "you're going to have a big belly." The way he says it is as if he is telling himself so that it sinks in. We are just so thrilled to finally become the parents we have longed to be.

This time has been extremely stressful for us. All of the 2 1/2 hour trips to Las Vegas to see the DR. I have been there 16 times in the past two months. All of the anticipation, the stress, the wonder. The injections, the medications, the awful side effects. The protocols the schedules the physical pain. I have been so emotional these past couple of months as all of the hormones and prescription drugs took their toll on my body. My poor husband has had to deal with my ups and downs and my crazy mood swings. We've fought more than we've ever fought these past couple of months. Not to mention we are selling our home in Arizona to move back to Maine. That alone has caused tons of stress.

I am trying to calm down for the transfer =)

Breathe in..Breathe out..Breathe in..Breathe out.